The Same Dream Since I Was Six, And Then My Daughter Drew It
The dream never changes: a low ceiling, a smell like pennies, and a decision being made about me by people who are not unkind.
The dream never changes: a low ceiling, a smell like pennies, and a decision being made about me by people who are not unkind.
She was a practical woman who bargained hard at market. Every Thursday she left a plate on the step for what she called the neighbours, and would not explain.
My daughter has a pale patch across her shoulder that she calls her burn. She started talking about the smoke and a woman named Ruth long before any of us said those things to her. I still don't know what to make of it.
I was a dispatcher for eleven years. One call is still in my body, and it is not in the system, and I have checked more times than is healthy.
The warehouse logs showed someone clocking pallets at 3am on nights we had no crew. When I asked too many questions about it, I was quietly let go for a policy nobody could name.
Little things moved when we were at work. We set up a camera. Our landlord let himself in twice a week, sat in our living room, went through our mail, and once lay down on our bed before leaving.
A loud man shoved to the front of the bank queue, waving papers, demanding to close a big deal ahead of everyone. The manager he insulted on the way in turned out to be the one signing it.
Eleven Black Fridays in, I thought I'd seen it all. Then a woman in slippers swung a boxed toaster at my head over a purchase limit, and my manager appeared out of thin air.
A scared recruit pulls his first fire watch shift and discovers the strange comfort of guarding forty sleeping strangers in the dark. Was it duty, or the first night they became my family?
The weighbridge logs every load. On the night of my missing hour it logged my truck twice, four minutes apart, with the same weight.
I thought I could handle a walled old town with a paper map and some confidence. Six hours later I was crying next to a tannery, out of water, and a boy on a bicycle became the only reason I got out.
I work the night ferry. On 3 November we docked twenty minutes late with full fuel, a calm sea, and thirty-one passengers who all remember a different crossing.
It was too tall and too thin and it was collecting our windfall apples, one at a time, with terrible politeness.
A man across the street was waving enthusiastically, so I waved back the whole way down the block. He was waving at the bus behind me. I made eye contact with everyone on that bus.
A wave of dread hit me at my desk so hard I called my brother without knowing why. He answered mid-fall from a ladder. My call is the only reason he was not alone at the bottom of it.
I use a snore-tracking app. On the night I dreamed about the grey room, it flagged 40 minutes of "speech" — and I live alone.
Two weeks after we buried Rooster, I heard his tags jingle down the hall and felt him jump onto the foot of the bed, exactly the way he had for nine years.
I hit the cattle guard at 11:04 and the next thing I knew it was 11:26, my hazard lights were on, and my truck was facing the way I had come.
I bought a beautiful old mirror at an estate sale. Movement in it lagged, a heartbeat behind the real room. One night my reflection stayed still after I turned away. I covered it. I still hear it under the sheet.
A friend took me to a place I had never been. Before we sat down I knew the crack in the third tile, the broken clock stuck at 4:20, and that the waiter would drop a tray. He did.